Went out 2 study wif fatheha....well i did study abit
Had a lil fun wif her....n i went 2 meet fahmi...i still have uncomplete tasks...Everyday...I've always listen 2 d same song..omfg?what is wrong with me?
Mungkin aku telah jatuh cinta padanya?
or izit not?Fia...Fia pe ngan ko ni?ko da lepaskan dia..dun tel me ko menyesal?aku tak tau lar fia...ko gile pe?
ko yg mintak break tapi skarang ko rindu dia?
What's wrong wif u la fia...kenapa?KO hancurkan hati dia tapi ko masih teringat pat dia...so Fia...ko nak uat pe skarang?benda da berlaku....let go and move on..
I think ur confused FIa..very confused...u juz duno wat u want....aku tak tau lar..ni hidup ko...ko kene pk ar sendiri...let go fia..
aku rasa ko terlalu kesunyian?bukan nye begitu Fia?lolx fia...kalo ko terserempak ngn dia ape kan ko uat Fia?r u gona run n hide or wat?ko pk k Fia?
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
If I lie here will you lie with me and juz forget the world?
Alif called saying that he's so sorry...And I forgave him...Cuz I know I've hurt him...well...Life has to move on right?I guess so...So yeah..Thanks for reading my blog...Cuz I've vented my anger here...And I guess you've read it till the end..Thanks..OH well..He wants us to be total strangers...And we're no longer enemies...So if that's the case...I've to respect his decision...I don't blame him cuz he and I tried our best....blame the timing...I know..I'm not ready to go in any relationship...right now...And I'll stay clear of it for awhile...Hmph...gosh I've ss test tomorrow...An essay question...Damn...Ive missed so much lesson wonder if I'll be able to catch up...OMG...haix I knew the meaning of the song Camelia by Irwansyah...But It kinda confused me..Oh well...Let the past be history let the present be a living life and the future a dream for me to plan...And my song to oyu...Escape the fate's harder than you know...
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
goodness gracious!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!I'm getting pissed with my monitor lolx..
It's giving me attitude literally...well...what's with a blank white screen?
It's driving me nuts...
Yeah..Actually...I find my love life stories..
Always have a twisted ending...Maybe one day I can publish my own anthology series...
Well..I'm not trying to brag...But each of them taught me a little or maybe more about myself and life....To salleh you thought what sincerity and loyalty is..And I admired your undying love once you gave me...Yes,we spent 3 years together...And I guessed your extremely lucky...cuz I gave my best in loving you..I did...And instead i took your angst and hatred with me...And I guess you took the caring part from me..Guess we both switched souls huh?lol..To alif...I did have a crush on you..and I still do...Else I wouldn't feel so miserable like this..I know I hurt you...And you placed high hopes on me...but i Know how hurt feels like...especially if someone proposes to you in public...I know...how that felt like..Alif you taught me to smile...and be happy...I'm thankful You're there....And to Fahmi...Cheers to a new friendship...HAHHAx...
I just had a haircut...today @ Jantzen..It was a treat from my mum..Ain't she sweet?Met chris just now..And he said 'you're much beautiful now'.He always knows how to cheer me up..Chris I missed you so much... Well..A new haircut to me is a new beginning so here's to a new chap in my life...God..I've to mug for an ss test tomorrow...SO hopefully I can get it right..Most of my clasmates haven't even touch ss..lol...Labels: OMG
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Monday, March 16, 2009
karma
Kiss me goodbye
You did not
Did all the talking
But i stood in a corner and cried
You called me a bitch
I did'nt retaliate
Hid in a corner
As the darkness overwhelms me
Much as I was suprised
You acted as if nothing happened
Something inside of me snapped
'As you no longer command my respect'
Was what you said
Yet I don't understand what went wrong..
I guess your talking about yourself..
My dear ex-boyfriennd
Your full of crap and lies
Though I wanted to be free
I tried my best to
DO it in a civilised
And proper manner
It was you who
DId what yu did
One day,
The tables will be turned
For whatever action you took
Will be brought to light
One day..
we shall see who'll have the last laugh
As I admit defeat today
One day
we shall see
who'll have the last laugh
As I admit defeat today
I fell down but i will stand up stronger
for, those that did'nt kill me will make me stronger
when the tables are turned
For whatever action you took..
Farewell to you..
my dear ex-boyfriend
As the darkness overwhelms you
beware it might eat you up alive
For what goes around comes around...
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Saturday, March 14, 2009
where should i begin?
I just have no idea where I should start? PTC came and go....CA1....I must say it was terrible...I only passed 3 subs ...if that's still not bad i dunno what to say...And I don't blame anyone but myself....cuz i've been slacking...so much...I hate myself...what my mum said is true...I focused on my personal life too much...and it bugs me...it's been 3 days..and my own guy didn't even contact me...Last night i tossed and turned in bed....I didn't even sleep last night...waiting..just hoping he would call me...but he didn't....well...my love life cocked up...and I've 2 improve my english....lol....i hate this world....esp the guys that i met in my life...Labels: ptc
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
candles...
LOL....what a day....i sprained my ankle...2 days ago...now...i'm at home resting...tomorrow i might have to be on crutches for awhile...i sprained my ankle on monday...during PE...while playing freesbie...lol...i injured it around 9+ in the morning but...i had to self medicate myself...what's worst is that I had to walk up to the 4th storey...I was so pissed...when I entered the class...it seemed like the teachers don't seem to care..i was unable to leave after school due to my teacher...I won't mention who..so i went home late and reached home at 7...my condition got worst when i was on the mrt...i was gritting my teeth to bear the pain..but once i reached home...i broke into tears...I didn't let my mum knew of my condition until I Reached home...my mum was like interrogating a prisoner...approxiamtely an hour later...i was wheeled in to the hospiatl...luckily my aunt was on duty...it made me procedure faster...lol...Unfortunately...I had a misunderstanding with my guy...He was So suprised...that i had to go to the hospital...I just feel that i learnt so much on Monday...my classmates all chipped in to help me even the guys...I was so touched....most of my family members esp the ladies came dow to either visit me or help me...I seriously felt so3 touched...in the end..he told me off for not doing well in my studies...how am i suppose to explain to him?i almost stayed back in sec 3 last year...so obviously...my stress level incresed tremendously...my cousin is working harder then i am...because she dropped seriously...i feel like dropping too...so...how am i gona explain that i wa so tired of catching up with dateline...i'm barely surviving...in school...will he understand that???I reached home typically at 7 + will he understand that??well..i just don't know...but it was a reason that made me cry...Labels: p
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Saturday, March 7, 2009
be dead...and rise from the dead...
well....life is unfair???i guess....hmmph...
wen i read this phrase...my tears almost ran down my cheeks...how many people...can actually let go of their past and move on....i find life is cruel at some points in life...i don't understand why it has to be this way?it's been a month since i'm in this relationship...but....we seemed quite distant...he has his work while i on the other hand,has school...sadly...i last met him on the 14th of february 2009....up till ten...i did'nt meet him at all...hmmph...
but frankly...i don't understand why...S is reappearing in my mind...its his memories i see...but when i ask myself if i still love him...my heart strictly said no...so why do i see...his face?easpecially during ug training on fridays?well...i just feel i'm being unfair to my current boyfriend...well...i guess those are memories i want to get rid of...please god...help me get rid of him in my life...in my memories...haix....well...i've been slacking...and there's ptc this friday..i'm worried my teachers and my parents will complaint on each other...lol...well...there's not much i wana write...till then...
fia
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